Pass The Brass

Just a quick update on Momma Kat’s Operation Love From Home, they’ve collected roughly 2,014 cards to date with only one month left to collect the remaining 18,000 to reach this years goal.

Keep up the work folks, we still have a ways to go to hit that mark! And remember…it doesn’t have to be anything fancy, it really is the thought that matters over there. Thanks again for all the support!

It’s like something I can’t escape.

Like a ship being tossed around in some storm out at sea, I have all these maddening ups and downs. And I can’t help but constantly keep thinking there’s something wrong with me. Why do I keep harping on all the bad aspects and it seems so hard to keep my eyes on whats good?

I think I am starting to understand the reasoning behind “Modern Psychology”. I keep looking for an excuse. I want something to blame. Or maybe I just want some stupid test medication to numb me to all this crap. I’m looking for some solid form of relief besides that of sitting down after days like these and just trying to settle my brain on something healthy and shut work off for the night at least. I don’t enjoy laying in bed trying to sleep while my mind is trying to solve all of my problems at work. Read the rest of this entry »

My brother’s wife is expecting another kid soon and they’re all runnin’ round tryin’ to get good name ideas and it just occurred to me…why do we have middle names? I have never used it once. Never have I been referred to by it, all it is is a letter that I have to write down every time I write my name on some military document. So why even bother if its never used?

If I was a better man, I would have gone by my middle name since age 12. I’m 23 and I still have to repeat, then spell, then reference my name anytime I introduce myself to someone. Let’s just say it got old a little over a decade ago.

Finally got the chance to go paintballin’ this Saturday. I had been wanting to go for some time now and this time I actually got the chance to get out there and sling some paint at people.

One highlight of the day was walking away with only one welt….given to me by my own team. I think the lesson to be learned here is to verbally announce your team or something when retreating toward a friendly bunker so as not to be deemed a charging enemy guy so you don’t get blasted point blank soon as you near the bunker. Colored Arm Bands are only good for so much.

Other than that, it was freakin awesome. One large field and a seperate smaller “Speedball” course made up the playing grounds. The smaller course was made up entirely of short stacks of tires set in short wall lengths that you maneuver up towards the enemies side and just shoot everyone. I’ll just put it bluntly I absolutely suck at that game. I’m pretty much useless the entire time and then suddenly a paint round flies between a few stacks of tires and lands right between the eyes. But that was the better “death”….the worst one was when they flanked me and shot me right in me arse. That one stung for a quick second.

Overall though, it was a very fun filled day and I can’t say how much I thoroughly enjoyed just being able to get out and do something for a change. As sore as I am now, it was almost energizing just getting out and running round the woods shooting things. This will most definitely become a regular activity as much as I can. I love this game.

I know I said I was gonna liven this place up and I really wanted to, hahah…but I never thought I would ever be so busy as I am now. But apparently it’s all relative. HAHA!! I’m about to find out how relative though.

I’m being told that I am reading into my new job entirely too much and that I am making it out to be so much more of a headache than it needs to be. That’s encouraging….I guess. So I have one of my bosses in the process of helping to prioritize this thing, and a little talkin to today by a few of my bosses has helped to ease my mind a little and right now I’m in the “Take it as it comes” mentality, instead of the “AAGGH!! EVERYTHING NEEDS TO BE DONE RIGHT NOW!! AAAGGGH!!” mentality. As you can imagine, the latter is not exactly the healthiest of mentalities. Heh. I’m werkin on that.

Some news from the other end of the spectrum…it’s PT test season. Yippee!! I just took mine the other day and I should have posted about it at an earlier time, but I was a bit overwhelmed at the moment and was not feelin in the mood to post anything. So here I am makin up for it in “my lil diary”.

Luckily for me, I had scheduled out a sleep period for which I could get rested and stretched before this event, so I got a decent night’s sleep. But I obviously have room for improvement in the push ups department….what is it with my total lack of muscles when it comes to my arms…its weird. My arms have a muscle phobia or something. They just don’t want it. It’s weird I know.

As for my sit ups and run time, sits ups were ok, a lil short, but ok. Run time was better than what I thought i was gonna get so I was cool with that. But thats where it gets weird.

As we were starting our run I noticed right off the bat, that the finish line was relocated a little farther down the track than “normal”…so I was like…crap we get a longer run here. Oh well.” I never worry bout failing a run time, cuz running just kinda comes to me naturally. Im blessed like that. Anyway, I finish with an acceptable time and we finish up the test and go home. Sweet…PT Test off my back..no more worries there. Later that day a mass email goes around that the run track was too long. DOH!!

Gotta take the test again now. I’m looking at this as a blessing in that I can now work harder on getting in as many push ups as I can until the next test date to up my score. Sweet deal.

Good times were had by all…sorta. I’ll see if anything else cool happens to me here soon although the chances are slim. For some reason things just aren’t as fun as they were when I first enlisted. I need a good hobby, that’ll give me some stories to write about…like Kayaking!! Yah…I really need to get into that. I’m saving up though, so we’ll see where I stand in a month’s time.

I just listened to that song Fly From The Inside by Shinedown, and it kinda hit me how I’m in a situation that needs me to do just that. I have been wracking my brain over the past 12 hours about how this situation is going to affect me…at how my life has just been thoroughly charged with all of the responsibility that I could have thought I could take.

And so here I am, the cards are on the table and I have been dealt my hand. So how do I react to this? That’s the big question. They say life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it. So I’m going to turn my attitude in the right direction. I place my faith in Christ for the strength I need and I’m just gonna press on and do my best. I have a lot of work ahead of me, but as long as my attitude is in the right place, I will be just fine.

I’ll fly from the inside and let my spirit be free in Christ.

I have most definitely just been thrown a HUGE curve ball. I didn’t see this coming at all. This is really going to turn things around, upside down, and every other which way.

I know I said I wanted to change my life around and do things differently…but this….was not what I expected would happen.

To put it shortly…I just got put in “Teh Boss” position at work.

“With great power comes great responsibility” is right…although Im seeing more responsibility than power at this moment in time, haha!! I’m going to be in fervent prayer for the next few months as things settle into their new places.

Please pray for me as I will most definitely need strength and courage in this time of trial and tribulation. I just hope I walk away with a passing grade.