Pass The Brass

Right about now I can’t remember the last time I just sat down at my computer and just played games for hours straight. I’ve met a few new friends and have just been spending my time outside these last few months.

So I have given up my antisocial status of playing games online and have moved on to the more socially acceptable killing time outside…just sitting there. HAHA! Sometimes I feel like I’m back in high school, “Whutchu wanna do?” “I dunno…whutchu wanna do?” Althoguh when my family and I lived on the west coast it was pretty easy to find a fall back plan seeing as the beach was the all around thing to do. I still miss it.

All of this to say that I have really started to change my social patterns in preparation for the “real world”. I think I’m doing rather well. Makes me wonder if the whole video game antisocial behaviorism’s were even there. Although I think I am being foreshadowed by certain other lifestyles lack of social etiquette. I am discovering more about myself though which is kinda funny. You would think after 24 years you would pretty much know yourself but every day has something new for ya.

As I sit and think about how my lot in life has shifted I look at how things have turned around. I am very much not the person I was when I joined. I come away with a very different outlook on life and all the madness within. I can see how I have given up some of my literary finesse as I drifted through. It still hurts me to an extent to admit that. I can still write with some of the best of them, but my pep…my zest has really seems lessened these days. Hopefully it is simply a lack of inspiration. I want to cure that when I change lives here in a few months.

Some of the things I want to draw inspiration from:
My niece’s and nephew first and foremost! I have missed too much of their growing up as it is. I can’t wait to watch them grow and discover life…all the while reminding us of how beautiful life can be.

Idaho’s great outdoors! Camping, hunting, hiking…all of that good stuff! I can’t tell you how much I miss just a simple cruise through the woods. It’s little things like that which bring about bursts of fresh air in such a droll and depressing modern times. It just brings you closer to God.

My walk with God. I have lost alot of what I had. And yet at the same time I have learned so much more about Him and His graces. How could I walk away completely from the one being that sustains me!?! I survived an entire year in Irak amidst turmoil that most people never even see…to say that was all chance would be stupidity. I owe God more than I could ever repay. I need to bring my focus back…return to my first love.

Start a career and family. I was never one for the whole dating scene. I always thought it as pointless and a means to a wrongful end in our decrepit society. Despite my ideals I have still tried at a couple failed relationships which were merely God’s way of pointing out that I really was not ready. I don’t expect God to drop a wife in my lap, but I do expect He will set up the time and place where we meet. And I do look forward to the day. For some reason, the whole family life appeals to me so much more than the wild “carefree” existence that is encouraged these days.

Well, that bout sums up how I’m feelin’ today. I’m really lookin forward to some good ole BBQ with friends now.

Thanks for stoppin by. Hope your Lord’s Day was as peaceful as mine.

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